About laurie

I am a work in progress and well aware of it. More to the point, excited about it! Being a work in progress means I can change at any time. I can be someone today that I wasn't yesterday, and might not be tomorrow, but is perfectly suited to today. Every day. That is complete freedom.

The Green Bubble

Several years ago, I was facing a conundrum.  I knew that all problems responded to love, and I wanted to be loving, but there were some things (people, circumstances) I just could not seem to find anything positive about, or think about without feeling very negative feelings.  So I asked my Invisible friends for help in coping with this issue.  Between us, we came up with the Green Bubble.

I had read about putting your troubles in a pink bubble and visualizing them floating up to be healed by God or the angels, but that didn’t feel satisfying to me.  I wanted to feel more active in the healing.  So I made a covenant with the universe that when I felt that way, I would mentally put that person or situation in a green bubble (green has not only signified to me the heart chakra, but also healing and growth) and that was the signal of my desire for all the love of the universe to be shined on it.

Did it help?  Well, I certainly felt better!

I used it in connection with a neighbor kid who has been troubled since his youth (he is now a young adult) any time I saw or heard him screaming filthy insults to his mom or his “friends”.  Instead of condemning him for his behavior, I carefully put him in a bubble, confident that he would receive the love that he needed.  Pretty soon I heard him telling another neighbor that he was going into an anger management program.  Not too long after that, my husband saw him in a store and told me what a nice, thoughtful young man he was.

Little by little , I saw him become happy and outgoing, even a little vulnerable, which he had never previously been able to afford to be.  Do I think my green bubble healed him?  Not completely.  He made peace with his demons by his own choosing.   I do believe my bubble helped him energetically both by the power of my intention ( in a quantum world, invisible forces  have strength) as well as by my withdrawal of negative judgement of him.  In addition, it helped me be open to seeing positive changes in him, as well as in my own life being able to let go of something that I had spent my energy feeling negative about.  Win, win, win.

More recently I have come to understand that what I have the hardest time loving in someone else is what I don’t love about myself in some fashion.  Because I am too close to the situation, it is almost impossible to see the connection, the mirror lesson.  In these cases, I put that part of myself in a green bubble ( I simply say:  “the part of myself which is in need of healing in this situation”), and usually the other person in a different one (because I still don’t want to be that close… :) ).   It’s hard to say how much of the effects I notice are from that particular strategy, but it is one more tool in the toolbox to let go and to feel better.

Divine discontent

A perfect example of Divine discontent is the desire of a woman in late pregnancy to just give birth and “get this over, already”.  It is the proper maturation of the experience at just the right time to make a necessary transition.  She is in tune with the process, she is in tune with the child within her.

Springtime is another good example.  When the sun begins to return, our hearts are lifted and we begin to anticipate the end of the cold weather.  By the time nice weather rolls around we are energized, primed for the growth that is happening all around us to take root within us.  It is a time to consciously allow the expansion that is “in the air”.

There are many times in our lives when we feel Divine discontent, and it is important to understand the role that it plays. Do we need to distinguish this feeling of having outgrown our situation from the discontent that arises from putting our attention on what we don’t want, that thing that Abraham calls “beating the drum of unwanted”?  How do you tell one from the other? Is there a difference? Good question.  This is the place where discernment is the best tool.

Discernment is the ability to monitor yourself:  your thoughts, your feelings, your intuition, your bodily reactions and to “test drive” potential solutions.  How does it feel to think about doing x solution or y solution?  I recently had the opportunity to consider moving to the nearest “big city” and live with or nearer to some of my children (who are truly my best friends).  At first the idea filled me with such a feeling of joy, I caught fire with the idea.  The thought of living in a place where so many interesting things were happening, where there was likely to be a group of people more on my wavelength, where there were multiple coffee shops within walking distance! LOL!

Yet after a few hours thought about logistics, I began to realize (discernment) that what excited me the most was really the sense of freedom from what I was living, and THAT was something I really wanted to accomplish without giving up what I already had.  So I began to look at what would help me to feel better right here, right now.  For inspiration, I looked at the whiteboard on my fridge which holds some of my favorite bits of Abraham advice.

“Appreciate what you have.

Look forward with eagerness  to what is coming.

DO what you look forward to.

Relax about it.”

As I thought about what I look forward to, I realized that most of what was on my list were tasks!

  • Figure out how to earn enough money to support my house alone.
  • Get skinny.
  • Finish painting the downstairs.

Geez, no wonder I felt dispirited, de-energized and trapped.  Where was “Go to Scotland”?  “Meet interesting people”?  “Really enjoy being in my body”?  Of these three, I could be doing two of them right now!  I had plainly been “beating the drum” of  “I don’t have enough money”. “I’m not good enough” and “I have to finish what I start”.  Taking a step back gave me the opportunity to see these things differently, and to recognize and try on some directions to see where I would rather go.

It is fair to say that in any case of unhappiness, some of it has arisen from “beating the drum” or habitually putting one’s attention on the aspects of a situation that are not what we want.  It is also fair to say that some of it is Divine discontent, meaning that at some level of our Being it is time to move on and grow.  Discernment, the ability to read your feeling signals  and be honest with yourself about what you truly want (even if you think you “shouldn’t” want that) is the tool that will allow you to make sense of what is going on and what you feel like doing about it.

Since there is an element of both kinds of discontent in any unhappiness, it serves to see it all as Divine discontent.  In this context it is natural, it is right, for us to find the gift of understanding and use it to nurture our true desires.

 

 

inner dialogue

I shared a Facebook post complaining about some subject and the unfairness with which it was being treated, probably by a governmental institution (?).  Honestly, I don’t remember the subject, but I remember that it twanged a note of victimhood in me at the time.  Very quickly I became uncomfortable with having shared it.
I wouldn’t even have posted this in my blog but for the fact that as I was looking at the draft, I managed to hit the right buttons to share it.  I am leaving it up because I took that a sign…

 

  • Tree at Large Since I posted this I have been a having a little internal dialogue about it.
    Self: If I am, as I believe, the creator of my own reality, through my intention, thoughts, feelings and focus of attention, then why would I subscribe to and propagate the fearfulness embodied in this statement?
  • Tree at Large Other part of Self: Well, it could have been said better, but since it caught my eye, I know that there is something in it for me to evaluate that reflects some belief of mine. I think it stimulated the part of me that wants complete freedom. Sometimes I think that I don’t have complete freedom.
  • Tree at Large S: Complete freedom would include the agencies above having complete freedom as well, right? And the protection of that freedom you want would be assured by the power of your focused thought, right?
  • Tree at Large OPoS: Hmmm, yes, I think so. So I guess this was sort of a pre-emptive strike against interference in my freedom. Which is rather a chip on my shoulder, making the assumption that the enemy IS there to take a shot at it.
  • Tree at Large Self: So what do we do about it? Take it down or let it stand?
  • Tree at Large OPoS: It doesn’t really matter, if I can make peace with the issue it raised. If this statement and it’s assumptions were a jar of capers, it would not get in my apple pie unless I put it there by focusing my attention on it.
  • Tree at Large OPoS: Besides I can always decide to take it down. New choices are always available.

The Basics/ The Whole Story

There is no one in the universe that has the power to control my feelings, except me.

There is no one in the universe who has the power to control my thoughts, except me.

There is no one in the universe who has the power to control my intention, except me.

Therefore, there is no one in the universe who has the power to control the way I experience my life, my reality, except me.

And in exerting my power to choose I choose to select thoughts which support feeling good and loving myself and my life.

In choosing to see the love and the power and the gifts within myself, I am choosing to see the love and the power and the gifts of this planet and all that share in it; people, animals, plants, insects, elements and spirits.

In choosing to see and celebrate the health and well-being of, the growth and the evolution in myself and my life, I am choosing to see the health and well-being, the growth and evolution of the times, the ecology and this moment of evolution.

In exerting my power of choice to feel good, I choose to become a channel of the Source of all love and well-being, of all gifts and comfort.

I choose to see in others what strength and beauty and value they have forgotten or discounted in themselves during the play that they are enacting at the moment.

I choose to see their eternal selves and the perspective that brings.

I choose to embrace all of this to bring myself aliveness and joy, which cannot but overflow and change the world by making itself available more and more, one person by one person.

I believe it is true that the microcosm reflects the macrocosm, or as it is often said, “As above, so below: as within, so without”.  Our choices to feel good and be powerful nourish the physical world by improving who we are and what we have to offer.

 

 

Others as Amplifiers

So you are having a pretty good day and a Facebook friend is a bit down and posts about it.

You recognize they are, as always, in the place of their power, ie

in the NOW,

with full choice of:

what their Intention is,

where they put their Attention,

the thoughts they choose to think,

which then guide their feelings

You choose to suggest another perspective, sympathetic but more positive.  But Facebook being what it is, he/she has friended many people who are not yet Deliberate Creators.  So your friend’s friends post stories of their own pain, they recognize and endorse his/her victimhood, their concern for his/her well-being flares into worry (because they aren’t yet looking at him/her as in the perfect place of power) in short, they reinforce the “what-is” that your friend was looking at.

 

Now your friend may actually have come to terms with the original complaint and be feeling better, but the replies keep pouring in, beating the drum of what was, which you understand as further opportunities for your friend to get clarity.

 

But you say to yourself, “I am not interested in this process any more.  I did my bit and all these comments are just drama to me.”

Well, the good news is, if you don’t already know, you can ‘unfollow’ the post! (Can you tell I just figured this out?) :)

 

This is a wonderful demonstration of the Law of Attraction at work and how to use it.

 

This is a great example of group work adding to the “pulling power” of a thought/belief.   Each thought has a frequency (see top illustration in chart below).   Adding thoughts of the same frequency (or thinkers with the same frequency :)  ) increases the amplitude, or strength of the thought (see second and third illustrations of chart below).  In terms of the LOA, the greater the amplitude, the greater the work which is accomplished.

Same frequency, changing amplitude

 

So what is the moral of this story?  Choices!

We have the choice of what to think, and whatever action we take about it shows us something useful.  Abraham says, “Don’t worry about it, it will get bigger”, which sounds tongue in cheek but is really a soothing statement to not worry!  If we have chosen to think and do what really serves us, the response will prove that, if we miss an opportunity or make a mistake, that too will become clear, at which time we make ANOTHER CHOICE!

 

Also, as an outsider, we never have to get caught in someone else’s choices, we can instead recognize the process of exploration that other person is choosing and ‘unfollow’ it!  AAAH, relief!

The Nemesis Teacher

What is a nemesis teacher?  A person or thing which brings out in  you that which you don’t like.   Politicians and celebrities are often the vectors for this (no, I am really not just talking about Scott Walker or Rush Limbaugh).  They seem to embody, or at least espouse, those things that you feel are “wrong”.    They are people or experiences that you do not want to include in your personal reality.  They also have a way of being insistent enough to grab your attention!

Now you know that to put your attention on them simply gives them more power to disrupt your balance, but it seems impossible not to pay attention, so what do you do?  It behooves me at this point to put out a reminder that it is far easier (Really!  Or at least it will be) and more beneficial to distract yourself with something that you already feel good about, but that takes a lot of practice.  Meanwhile, find something to be grateful to your Nemesis Teacher for.  Really.

For example, that politician has powerfully drawn people’s attention to how the democratic process should work, what accountability should look like, what integrity really means.  That celebrity has caused us to value what he has put down with his name-calling tactics, has given us the opportunity to play with it in a humorous fashion.  It has pointed up what we really want by comparison to what we don’t want.

I used to tell my kids that if you really can’t find any other reason to be grateful to a nemesis teacher, tell yourself, “I’m so glad I’m not you!” (over time this has morphed into, “I’m so glad I am who I am”, but the other version has more punch because it tickles your funny bone.  Sometimes there’s a lot of relief to be had in being kinda mean in private!)

The Nemesis Teacher can be a person or an experience (being locked out of the house with the groceries and a busy agenda, for example) and it is what Abraham refers to as “contrast”.   The word “contrast” is a non-judgmental way of looking at it and points up the fact that it is  a contrast to what you want, thereby gently suggesting that inherent in the situation is an understanding of what you DO want.

So, if you are locked out of the house with the groceries and a to do list as long as your arm, what good does it do you to know that what you really want is to get inside and do your stuff?  Well, I admit that this part is kinda tricky.  The truth is that you need to identify the bit about what you want to feel, not the circumstances.  What you can’t change IS, so set about changing what you can change–your feelings about it.

“So, I’ve done what I can to get someone with a key to let me in.  Now how can I make this an experience I’m OK with?  It’s cold enough to keep the groceries from spoiling, yet warm enough that I won’t freeze.  If I wanted to, I could probably get invited into a neighbors for awhile if I do get too cold.  Wouldn’t it be nice if someone with a key comes faster than I expect.  The sky show is pretty amazing, and anything I wanted to do will still be there to do when I get to it.  This will be funny later.   It’s a little bit funny now. Every thing will be okay. ”

Who’s happier, Pooh or Eeyore?  It’s up to you which one you choose to spend your time and energy to be.

 

Poco a poco

We tend to think small changes are unimportant, insignificant.  We discount their value because it doesn’t seem like enough.   Never think so!  When changes come gradually, it gives us a chance to become accustomed to them, to try them on and make sure they fit.

When a toddler learns to jump (what a joy to watch, you’d think they were learning to fly!), they will often practice jumping with one foot first, which looks almost like stomping, but you can tell.  They find it so exciting, they stomp around and stomp around until one day-BOOM!- two feet leave the ground!  How long would it have taken to achieve two feet off the ground if they had discounted the value of one-foot jumping?

The vast majority of changes in our lives are accomplished little by little, adding up to an incremental progression.  We notice it in our children because it is so (relatively) fast, but to get a look at the changes we have wrought in ourselves, it is sometimes necessary to look back over a time period of a few months or a year to see how those incremental changes have mounted up.  I just did this and I am SO much happier on a daily basis, SO much better at managing my vibration, particularly at finding positive aspects to put my attention on.

When you do this, be sure to give yourself credit for every little bit.  If you find yourself tempted to judge something as not good enough to list, list it and then make a point of adding a reason (and make it one which feels authentic) as to why this was valuable enough to list.  I frequently make this a reason which tickles my funnybone, such as, “it brings my word count up by 25″, because when I find something funny I am in the vicinity of my best feeling times and often get swept along to even better feelings.

 

 

 

Love the Commonplace

Something we have learned well, and we can see this clearly when we look at the media, is to put our attention on what is topical.  What big thing is garnering all of our attention today, this week, this month?  I have never seen the Nightly News come right out and say, “People all over the world are still loving each other the best way they know how, today” or “98.5% of children under 3 learned half a dozen useful skills this morning and can be expected to do it again tomorrow”. The media would tell us that is not ‘news’.  That is commonplace.

Politicians are corrupt, corporations are soulless, life is unfair to the common man, disease is rampant, etc.  Sorry, but none of this is new.  Also, none of this is or ever has been universal: not all politicians are corrupt, not all corporations are soulless, each and every one of us, common or uncommon has choices, and health is also rampant.  So why, after millenia are we still considering this viewpoint as worthy of our attention?  Simple.  It is a practiced habit.

We tend to pay attention to topical issues, both as a population and as individuals.  However, the ability to go back over your assumptions and those choices that were made before is a very important tool in changing a habit!  Ask yourself what benefit you get from paying attention to the negatives.  I can think of 2 offhand:

1) It points out the positive direction by contrast (if I don’t want pain, I do want comfort).

2) It feels so good when you stop (paying attention to the negatives).

It is a basic LoA principle that what you pay attention to grows larger, and that you can’t magnetize what you DO want by focusing on what you DON’T want.  To attract it, you must already see yourself having it.  Since this is kinda tough, especially in the beginning, I have a suggestion.  Train yourself out of the habit of focusing on what you don’t want by training yourself to disregard topical issues, social and private.  Start with the ones that are outside your direct control, for example what you see in the media. Replace those thoughts with the ways you have what you want.  Despite what the media says, I have a job, a house, a car, etc.   HINT: Allow yourself to speak from this very moment! Do not predict that you may not have it next week, next week is not here! Match yourself NOW to what you want any time in the future.

The next suggestion is really the meat of this post: celebrate those commonplace things that are so easy to disregard because they are ‘not good enough’ to actually celebrate.  One of my daughters was miserable at one point in her teens because no one loved her.  I told her I loved her and thought she was special.  She replied, “That doesn’t count, you have to love me, you’re my mother”.  This just goes to show our ability to disregard what could be a source of comfort or celebration. Once I had a migraine and searched my entire body for a spot that didn’t hurt, so I could put my attention on it.  It was the arches of my feet.  As I focused my attention on them, not only did the pain recede from my awareness, the arches of my feet rubbing against one another became more and more deliciously comfortable.

I did this today and I felt so much better, I began to giggle. “I love the way these jeans fit, I really look forward to having all my jeans fit this well. I love having lots of clothes to choose from to stay warm.  I love the warmth and the massage of the water in the shower, and the way I feel refreshed and renewed when I get out.  I love the smell of this dill I am harvesting and this soup I am making.  I love the feeling of release I get from taking a big breath. I love the fact that I can feel better whenever I want by breathing deeply.  I love the fact that once I get started doing this, I attract more ideas of what I love….”

Give credit to your commonplace abundance, allow it to help you feel better for as long as you do it, and practice this habit.  You will find the harder issues will, little by little, get easier.

Trust Yourself

You and you alone are the best judge of what is right for you.  Pardon me,  I meant “Right”, because it also includes what is “True”.  For you.  My friend Coffee Lady and I have agreed to disagree about whether there actually is such a thing as ‘objective reality’, but each of us is convinced of the Truth of the matter :)  But that’s another post for another time.  This post is about how each of us, as a vibrational being, is perfectly suited to interpret the vibrations around us and choose the ones that are right for us.

To paraphrase Abraham (and to misquote Madonna at the same time!):

  “We are living in a vibrational world,

   and I am a Vibrational Girl”

We have eyes to interpret light waves, ears to interpret sound waves, taste and smell for volatile/excited food particles , etc.  We also have emotions which are the sense ‘organ’ for detecting how well we are in alignment with our larger selves.  This ability has gone largely uncredited, even scorned for the role it plays.  Growing up, did you ever have the temerity to tell your parents or teachers that you didn’t do what they expected of you because you didn’t feel like it? How many times  did you repeat that technique? :)

Over time, you learned to ignore as much as possible what your emotions were telling you, and to use standard, socially acceptable templates to choose what you could and could not “get away with”.  You probably learned how to feign illness (which after chronic success became real illness), how to disappear when chores awaited, how to sweet-talk or manipulate a delay or compromise, etc.   All the while, this valuable guidance system either earned less and less attention or had to become VERY LOUD in order for you to give it credit.

Ironically, people who felt very strongly that they should not get on that airplane that crashed are lauded as either psychic or “protected” by angels or such, when in fact it was their own emotional guidance system doing its job.  It should be noted, however, that someone who was really in touch with this emotional guidance would probably have gotten the message long before they got to the airport.

In the process of re-learning to follow our emotional guidance, it is important to take it in stages.  Very few people could tolerate the fear engendered by telling their boss that they are not inspired to come in to work today, or tolerate the rapid change in their employment status, either.   So, taking it stepwise is perfect.  Do what you “feel like” on your off time. Practice changing your feeling about going to work, although this is tricky, because you have to actually feel better, not just come up with words that sound good (a common issue).

It is also important to recognize the difference between “I want” and “I feel like”.  I discovered that I was saying, “I want to clean the house” when I absolutely didn’t feel like cleaning.  What I was feeling was, “I want this house clean because then it would be okay for me to take a nap” which is what I actually felt like.  If this sounds complicated, that is only because most of us have built up our resistance to pleasing ourselves in many ways over the years.  It takes some time to peel back the layers, bit by bit.  But you have the tool if you will only begin to learn how to use it.

So if you can trust your nose to tell you what is going to be delicious, your balance to keep you upright, your eyes to find your keys… you can trust your feelings to guide you in more esoteric ways.  Like the bumper sticker says, “If it feels good, do it!”.

I am changing, blog is changing…

In the 7 months since I began this blog I have undergone numerous changes of direction, but I always tried to keep the focus of the blog in the same ballpark.  That is, I was attempting to make LoA principles understandable from a mainstream perspective.

I have recently come to understand that what I really want is a place to record the inspirations that sheet through the universe and land in my brain.  Whether anyone gets it or not.  That’s not to say that I don’t want you to get it. I do.  But it is really more about getting it out of my brain and into form, and less about “teaching” anybody anything.  I expect that, the Law of Attraction being what it is, anyone who needs/wants  to hear what I say will be attracted to it in some miraculous or mundane fashion.

Just thought I’d say it.  :)

And I am sooo not done….